NO, I don’t want that so called relationship right now.
I am legitimately extremely busy and don’t plan on making time for just anyone. I have got a full-time job, a side hustle, and are currently working on putting plans together for the next big digital non-profit to eradicate world poverty. When I look at my schedule each day, I have got 5 hours of “me time” and by “me time” I mean sleep. So whoever disrupts my extremely busy life will simply have to be a very special somebody. Till then, a life of fulfilled busyness it is.
I have an unexplained but strong dislike for everyone within my “dating market/pool.” Whether I find them immature, two faced, lairs, cheaters, flirters, players or I have decided I am too immature, all people who I could potentially be interested in lose their appeal after about 15 seconds.
I simply just hate everyone. And until I and my inner me uncover the core of this, I have decided it’s best I stay away from romance and most of humanity in general.
I am a commerce graduate, DJ and electronic music producer and have come to the conclusion that the only way I am going to be the next philosopher, historian, social theorist, literary critic, a best DJ, EDM artist or bell hooks is to completely dedicate my entire existence to my field of study. I see no dating prospects, all I see are PhDs and future students quoting me. And honestly, I am okay with that right now.
My life is messy and not just in the usual way everyone else’s is. I just can’t figure out what I want in anything — professionally, personally, and otherwise. This is more than commitment issues, I flat out don’t have a grip on anything. And until I do, I don’t want anyone else to be caught up in my mess.
I have seen this cycle way too often: friend starts dating, friend falls in love, you never see friend again. The end. Sure it doesn’t happen to all your friends but it sure as hell looks like the rule, not the exception. I don’t want this to happen to me so I am not going down this way without a fight! If relationships parallel moving to the burbs, I am going to chain myself to the tallest building in my town.
I am content with the single life, dare I say it, extremely happy. I really enjoy the freedom to do whatever I want to do without considering someone else. I want to move to see new place tomorrow? Well, all I have to do is find a suitable day and time and do it. It’s not that I am necessarily going to do this, it’s that I like the feeling of knowing that I easily could if I wanted to.
There is just so much Facebook, Instagram, WhatsApp, YouTube, Netflix, Hulu, Amazon Instant to watch and unless the people check up on me and true to their feeling towards to me plans on asking me out, it’s going to be cigarette and chai until further notice.